Ready or Not

[thatsjustjenna]

I'm going.
Kicking and screaming.
But I'm going.

The countdown has begun. Only about eight more hours until I move back to Raleigh for my Junior year at Meredith.

Egads, where has the time gone?

I think I have blocked out parts of sophmore year. I refuse to remember most of the bad times, while attempting to retain all the good times. All of this remembering is leaving me nervous and uncertain about how this year will be. I always go in the year with high expectations, but why do I have this gut feeling that this is going to be a horrible year?

It's all a mind game, I realize this, but I am tired of mind games. Everything I have worked so hard for these past two years I am questioning. I don't know if I am at the right school, if I am in the right major, if I am where I want to be in my life at all.

My life now is so very different from the life I pictured myself living when I was a little girl. Things are so...uncertain.

And how many of my friends are getting married? So far I have been, or will be, a bridesmaid in...three weddings? What is this? Some kind of epidemic? If it is, I wouldn't mind catching it. I'll admit that all of my friends getting hitched really makes me want to get married. Granted, I am in no rush at all. (I have always been the slower one.) But in all this uncertainty, a little stability would be a nice change.

Later on this morning I will be moving into my new dorm, with my new roommate, with a new start. Even though I don't want an new start, I liked the old one just fine.

I'm going
Kicking and screaming.
But I'm going.

Comments

[davzflower.livejournal.com]

It's not entirely a new start, you still have to put up with me. :P By the way if you need help moving in, or want to visit after, give me a call on my cell tomorrow. I wanna see you (and Liz) again.

[infinitelycute.livejournal.com]

things change too quickly...as do people who wish to grow up just as fast.
i want to be a kid for as long as possible...~.^ it's sad when everyone else leaves you alone in that.

let me know if you want to vent!

lurves you!
~me

[scatterbrainiac.livejournal.com]

Good luck baby! I hope everything goes well for you! I'm sure it will...and hey you should have the last wedding so that everyone remembers what you got them/were to them in their wedding so they can return the favor!! Haha! I love you lots!!!

[clairescowboy.livejournal.com]

hey i clicked on the random button and i got ur lj. i looooooooooooooove ur site!!! do you think that you would be able to help me with mine? ~michelle

[pinkotaku.livejournal.com]

Hmmm..
Well, it's been a while since I've worked on my site. I don't know much about HTML anymore. I can do the basics of creating links and posting pictures and such, but that's about it.

[clairescowboy.livejournal.com]

o ok that's cool didn't mean to bug you or ne thing. ciao!

[xmegan22x.livejournal.com]

i agree.
some stability would be rather nice, as it has been too long since ive felt stable.

i dont know where i should or need to be. i question everything i do...every day. though i would like a new start. id like to leave it all behind. the bad memories, south boston..most everything.

i feel like i dont know who i am anymore.

[pinkotaku.livejournal.com]

I know what you mean, I am in the same spot. I'm questioning a lot more things now, than ever, and everyday.

You should come down and visit me this year. I would love to have you down, and maybe we can work out some stuff together.

[xmegan22x.livejournal.com]

that would be awesome.
let me know when would be good for you, and ill try to work it in. between dancing and sleeping :P
<3